Being adopted has you learning all sorts of new things about yourself all the time.

I mean, it wasn't til more recently did I discover all on my own that I am indeed the son of Satan, Damien, heir to the throne. But today I found out something from Barbara that I never knew. Apparently it was my biological mother Thui who called it when I was born. The reason she tried to dispose of me at birth, and/or avoided me was because she truly believed I was the son of Satan! After 22 years I still don't know a lot of details about my history, biological family history, genetics, cultural background, except that my REAL REAL father is the prince of darkness. But all the time, my past will come up into conversation and I'll get new details.

This is the best one. I also learned this today. When I was babtized THE ENTIRE CHURCH cleared out after mass before my parents brought me up to the altar to be babtized. Can you picture a herd of people all heading for the door after seeing this grotesque, evil baby brought up to the altar at the house of God to be babtized? That's something not a lot of people can say they've been through. Even fewer can say they'd be ashamed of something like that. I am one of the even fewer to say that I was an evil satan baby and I AM DAMNED PROUD of being able to scare away a bunch of fearing Christians. I can't get over it. AN ENTIRE CHURCH.

Here's a face not even a mother can love! lol


It wasn't until after all the surgeries did I actually look like an infant human being.

By then I was kinda cute even if I do say so myself.

It has me questioning all the satan spawn rumors/accusations. Was it ignorance or intuition? Ignorance just simply based on how I looked. Most people have never seen, nevermind heard of the defect that I was born with. Was it more intuition? Did someone in my biological family know something more about my origin, or know that as soon as I grew older there'd be a point in my life where I'd be responsible for the apocalypse, so disposing me at birth would be the best way to deal with not letting me come into power at some point in adulthood?

There's many things I may never know about where I came from. I ask my 'adopted' family who my real father was, and they reply, "Wa was supposed to be your real father, but according to some people it was some guy from New York that your mother had an affair with." Some guy from New York eh? You mean she wasn't brutally raped by SATAN one time and conceived me? After all, my older biological brother came out normal. She didn't take any birth control througout the duration of her pregnancy with him. And my little sister came out normal too. No birth controlled 9 months for her either. I don't know about you, but I'd be pretty ashamed and dirty if Satan raped me. I'd want to abort whatever demon child was in me.

I should get a t-shirt made that says, "I SURVIVED ABORTION." When are stupid bitches gonna learn. Pills are FUN, but coat hangers get the job DONE.

I do trust my family. Adopted. I tend to even trust the things they say about my past. They remember it all. I was just a baby. For some reason though I have that little voice in my head telling me that they can be fibbing some details. After all I only know their side of the story.

Yet, I'm not about to go seeking my biological family. The suck. I hate them. They're the worst thing that ever happened to me.

I do often wonder about my biological brother and my sister though. They actually had to grow up with those fucking cockbags, and live through the abuse that I got saved from. I wanna know who they are, where they are, and how they're doing. They did nothing to me, so I shouldn't have anything against them.

Sometimes it's fun being adopted. But it leaves you with a lot of unanswered questions. I guess it just adds to my mystique or something. I dunno. Supposedly that kinda thing is attractive.

Being the biological son of Satan's not as bad as you'd think. I'm just a somewhat normal guy. I'm not super duper evil. Neither is my dad. Movies like The Omen exaggerate me, and make me look so much worse. I'm not here to indiscriminately kill people, or purposely cause pain or anguish. However I do get a thrill out of mass destruction, human suffering, serving as the opposition, natural disasters, war, and the downfall of organized religion. I am naturally cruel and vengeful. We all have our issues.

People often overlook the goods of our evil. If it wasn't for guys like me or Satan, there would be no such thing as humor. I bet you've never thought about it but humor comes from the oppositional force of negativity. Laughing is the balancing of the human soul. Things are found to be "funny" when the perception of standards are warped and distorted. "Point" is made to be serious, (I have nothing to do with this) and "Counterpoint" is the variable to "Point" causing humor to be created and perceived by the human mind/spirit.

IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF EVIL!!!! SWEET SWEET EVIL!!!

I need to go check my myspace messages.