My other issue that I've refrained from talking about for months is that people are taking hearsay about me and making it their sentiments against me which is completely unfair. I'm not sure if this is what happened but from what I've heard through the grapevine, it's what is... Several months after my failed birthday party, Gaucher approached me at the Abbey and apologized for not coming and for being a shitty human being. I said thanks. He shook my hand and proceeded to hint at the fact that the reason he or a lot of people didn't come is because they would feel "uncomfortable" around my biological family which ultimately translate to "I'm a racist biggot who hates Asian people but having a token one around that's practically a cracka anyways, is perfectly okay. Do not exceed maximum dosage." Very politely I told him that I appreciated him approaching me and apologizing, and I explained to him my take on the situation. I even nudged him to call me up to talk about it some more if he was sincere. When Gaucher failed to receive the reciprocation from his apology, he somewhat stormed off. From what I've heard, not saying it's true, he told people within our circle that he approached me at the bar and I said "Fuck you" or something to him, which is entirely untrue. I was as polite as I could possibly be to someone who straight up dissed me. But as word spreads like wildfire amongst peers like words often do, I think there are a mass group of people that resent me for something that didn't happen.
My story in a nutshell is that, I tried to introduce people who i thought were close friends to a few of my cousins, drink some beers, eat some food, listen to music and hang out, really hurt me by saying that they were going to support me by coming out, and then backed out without even calling because they were too intimidated by being around people of different ethnic origin. The backlash is that I disconnected myself from those people out of respect for myself. One person apologizes, doesn't gets what he wants from it, spreads a horrible lie about what happened and now I'm the recipient of a mass disapproval of people who know nothing about me, know nothing about how I feel, and didn't even take two seconds to call my ass and ask me what the hell was going on.
So just believe whatever quiet, fun, laid back, do nothing wrong John Gaucher says because he is who he is. And Shawn Malloy is just an asshole who does mean shit to people all the time. Right???
Well now, I think is a perfect time to say it. I didn't want to at first, but now I've seen enough to hold a good assessment of how people are. So here it goes...
mlm FUCK YOU ALL mlm !!!!
That felt good.